I’ve done it now, properly this time. I’ve decided to cut off from all other avenues of possibility, and overcome financial domination, and not just findom, but all areas of female domination / submissiveness that have been affecting me for years. Deep down I am a masculine MAN, I just have some negative mental programming that has twisted my mind and made me operate contrary to my naturally masculine genetic programming. Once I clear all the junk out of my mind and life I’ll be free to live my life how I should be living it, not sacrificing it for somebody else.
I’ll delete all my findom clips and start watching ‘vanilla’ porn. Since I deleted all my other porn from my computer while I was serving Goddess Tierra, I’ll have to start afresh. My new collection certainly won’t be as big as my old one, I plan on only having a small amount now, and there will be no kinky stuff either, just vanilla porn. I’ll force myself to enjoy vanilla sex. Some Dommes condition their slaves to be gay by making them watch gay porn. By applying the same principle I’ll rewire my brain into enjoying vanilla porn, which will mean I’ll likely appreciate vanilla sex too. I think I’ll sign up for a membership at www.roundandbrown.com – the women there are hot, some are even as hot as Goddess Tierra, and it only costs $25 a month! Soon my mind will be rewired to actually enjoy vanilla sex instead of findom.
Once I enjoy vanilla porn/sex I’ll be able to search for a GF who actually loves me for who I am, not for the money I give her, and I’ll be able to live a normal life.
I’ll start studying the PUA materials I have – Ross Jeffries Speed Seduction home study course, Carlos Xuma’s secrets of the Alpha Man, Juggler Method, Mystery Method, Martial Mastery, Mental Warfare Secrets and all the other books and CD/DVD programs I have. I’ve just bought the Break the habit Paraliminal which will be a nice replacement to all Goddess Tierra’s hypno clips I’ve been listening to.
From now on I’ll stay downstairs with my parents more, start going to the volunteer work again, join a Yoga class, join a Martial Arts class and get out of the house more so I can actually meet people and keep myself away from the temptation of the computer. It’ll also give me some hobbies and interests I can talk about to make new friends.
And finally, I’ll apply everything I KNOW about but chose not to APPLY from all the books and information resources I’ve studied on psychology and overcoming addictions to ensure I finally overcome this once and for all.
I’ll be documenting my progress here, or maybe I’ll delete this blog and start blogging on a new blog so I’m not stuck in this old ‘identity’.
My new years resolution this year was to overcome financial domination. I may not have done this straight away, but there is another month and a half until 2011 comes around. By that time my habit will well and truly have gone, the only thing I’ll have to focus on then is repaying all the credit card debt I’m in. That’ll be my new years resolution for 2011. It’ll take a lot longer than a year to clear it all though, but I’ll set my plan out for how soon I can get out of this mess I’m in then.
I'd like to thank everyone who has encouraged me to take this step and once and for all overcome this fetish.
This is an interesting challenge for me, but I know I’ll come out of it much stronger, much wiser, and it’ll pave the way for my ultimate success in the future.