slaverichard: A money slave owned by GoddessTierra (slaverichard) wrote,
slaverichard: A money slave owned by GoddessTierra

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1 year since starting recovery

It's exactly 1 year since I started my 'serious' recovery.  Since I started I've had some successes, and unfortunately had a few slips along the way too.  But mostly I would say I have been successful, though not as successful as I would have wanted.  I  have slipped a lot more than I would have liked.  It's kind of a normal thing for me to last a week, sometimes two weeks, and then slip.  It's got to be almost an expected habit actually, which is why I'm no longer actually counting the number of days I've been free, I'm just focussing on today – one day at a time.  This seems to be working well so far.  I think I had a subconscious block that said I can't get beyond 7-14 days, so I ended up slipping.

Since I broke free from porn and findom, I got my first girlfriend, improved my financial situation,  reduced my stress levels and improved my confidence.  I have also seen an improvement in my porn induced ED, though this has yet to be fully cured.  I'm hoping my erectile function with real women will return to normal by the new year, if not certainly by the new financial year in April 2012.

The benefits of quitting this addiction are immense.  If I had continued down the path of addiction I would hate to imagine where I would be – deeper in debt, more serious P induced ED, no GF, more dependent on my former domme and findom and porn, bad relationship with my parents, bad credit rating, bad financial situation, missing out on life, low self-esteem, low confidence, poor social skills, increased stress, depression and anxiety. 

This time next year hopefully I'll be writing about how great my life has become.  I'd be a whole year free from porn/findom, I'd have a huge chunk of my debt repaid, I'd have a new GF, and my levels of self-esteem, confidence and self-respect would have reached an all new level.

The benefits of sticking at recovery are really worth it.  I'm going to keep going until I succeed, there is no giving in for me.
Tags: addiction, financial domination, findom, money slavery, overcome financial domination, porn addiction
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